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ALIVE

This world will end today but the dead, and I don't care. I'll be laughing loud simply to be there.
To live in your hands isn't to live at all. You made me, you made me small.
Hey, hey, hey.
I'm alive, here in my fish bowl. I'm alive, tied to this brick. I'm alive with my enemies. Thank God for the air in my lungs.
The sun may climb the hill, but it cannot break the dune. Despite the common will, your spite ensures I'm doomed.
I search for the sea with dogs chasing me. Drunk on the perfume of me. Hey, hey, hey.
I'm alive, here in this fish bowl. I'm alive, tied to this brick. I'm alive with my enemies. Thank God for the air in my lungs.
I'm alive, in my red velvet tomb. I'm alive, in my empty little room. I'm alive, in my cancelled dreams. Thank God for the air in my lungs. Here comes that devil, I know him so well. He makes the last note of music dispel. Covers the children in red bloody blossoms. But I'll never drink from that wine. Hey, hey, hey.
I'm alive, here in this fish bowl. I'm alive, tied to this brick. I'm alive with my enemies. Thank God for the air in my lungs.
I'm alive, in my red velvet tomb. I'm alive, in my empty little room. I'm alive, in my cancelled dreams. Thank God for the air in my lungs.

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ALONE

You will never know my true intent. You're heaven sent, but I'm hell-bent on ruining it all, throwing away everything I have, everything I am. In your frame you look like art, and I can't start to let myself think you feel the same. It's blasphemy to think of you that way, to think you feel at all.
Deep within the chaos and the white noise you are oblivion, and I will be true. Don't ever think I don't realize what I have.
But just to please myself, I'd rather be alone, it's the only thing I've known. And it makes me feel at home.
Just to please myself, I'd rather be alone, your love is all I've known, and I can't love a stone.
The joy of living pales against the majesty of your presence. And I could waste away living in the promise of that day when you would know my name. My shadow would grow bigger than myself. You are oblivion and I know it's true, don't ever think I don't realize what you are.
But just to please myself, I'd rather be alone, its the only thing I've known, and I can't love a stone.
Maybe you need sympathy or something stronger. But no amount of fire from me will make you warmer.
You will never know my true intent. You're heaven sent, but I'm hell-bent on ruining it all, throwing away everything I have, everything I am. Regardless of the chaos and the white noise, you are oblivion, and I know it's true, don't ever think I don't realize what you are.
But just to please myself, I'd rather be alone, it's the only thing I've known, and I can't love a stone.
Just to please myself, I'd rather be alone, it's the only thing I've known, and I can't love a stone.

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DARJEELING

Darjeling, my sacred thing. Dress yourself in me. Took a long, long time for the night tide to bring you home to me.
If I could have died, if I could have physically died of a broken heart I would have.
Darjeling, my precious thing. You have clipped my wings. Took it all in stride, took the wrong side. Made it all worth while.
Never looked outside, no I never questioned. Never raised my voice to anyone.
Darjeeling .
The tide is closing over my face. The sky is vaulting over this place. This world is far too wide to hide. I'm weak that way. My Earl is grey. Darjeling, my painted dream. You stop everything. Darjeling, darjeling. Dress yourself in me.

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DESIRELESS

We had music for dinner, heady and sweet, to wash the bitterness of words from our lips. My love for you is irreversible, and strong like song. In your slow voice, I heard suggestion. In your reaches I felt perfection. I will linger on inside your wordless poetry of melody.
Daddy, I'm a bad girl, give it to me straight. Don't tell me life is honey when you and I know it ain't. I couldn't be your angel, I had to steal a kiss. And if you could be here now, I wouldn't be desireless. If this night could find tomorrow and I gave words to my sorrow, I'd find solace in the prospect of belief. But I couldn't spare the roses when I drowned the weeds. And the nature of your virtue is my grief. Your game was so enticing that I could not resist. Your promise so inviting, playing out upon your lips.
I couldn't be your angel, I had to steal a kiss. And if you could be here now, I wouldn't be desireless.
If each twilight's yours alone, and your lover feels like home, you will know the blessing you have been to me.
Your game was so exciting, I had to take the risk. You radiate so blinding, my pulse froze in my wrists.
I couldn't be your angel, I had to steal a kiss. And if you could be here now, I wouldn't be desireless.

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DREAMING OF YOU

Ten bizarre dreams are living in my head. They de-evolve, just won't resolve. They keep on swarming and hovering low, bubbling slow. I removed myself from myself, seen every perspective, from every light.
Still I feel my mind's own bondage. It's so hard to be honest. It's such a great insurmountable torrent when I find myself torn in two. I realized I can't ignore it, and again I am faced with you. Oh, we are so perfect for each other. Who am I to fight my very nature? Ooh, never wanted something this way ever.
And I'm dreaming, dreaming of you. You're just too good to be true. Oh, I have been waiting to bloom. Dreaming, dreaming of you.
You're a mirror for everything in this world that makes my heart stop. The rays from your heart center fill me with laser spot light.
And its a great indescribable torment when I find my self without you. I think we are co-dependent, and again I am feeling blue. I just want to kiss with you forever. Love your smile brings San Diego weather. It's not like I am trying to be clever.
But I'm dreaming, dreaming of you. You're just too good to be true. Oh, I have been waiting to bloom. Dreaming, dreaming of you.

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FLY TO YOU

I put so much into this little dream I had. I swear to you I could almost taste and touch peace at last.
But if you taught me anything, it's how to let things I love go. You said, "Through all this, whatever becomes of me I'll fly to you. With lungs full of cement, whatever the world does to me I'll fly to you. In this landfill of subtlety and envy, at least you'll always have me. Like a summer song, like there's nothing wrong, I'll fly to you."
My remembrance of you is so real I could live in it. But it seems so long since I came to you searching for a friend.
But that same voice that spoke to me and whispers is somehow different now. You said, "Through all this, whatever becomes of me I'll fly to you. With lungs full of cement, whatever the world does to me I'll fly to you. In this landfill of subtlety and envy, at least you'll always have me. Like a summer song, like there's nothing wrong, I'll fly to you."

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LIFE WITHOUT ME

I've been thinking to myself. I might have to try some things. To take my mind off this troubled world. Take my mind off these troubled times. Now my back is to the wall. Now my heart is not in me. Now I'll see what I can find. I wanna get out, I wanna get out!
Sugar won't sweeten what I have to say.
So take this time to imagine life without me, honey. When all your threats I've realized, tell me, who's gonna dry your eyes? Who's gonna dry your eyes?
Everybody knows about all the things you put me through. Don't think that they'll side with you now that I am done with you.
Now my back is to the wall. Now my heart is not in me. Now let's see what I can find. I wanna get out, I wanna get out!
Sugar won't sweeten what I have to say.
So take this time to imagine life without me, honey. When all your plans are compromised I'm not gonna sympathize. Not gonna sympathize. Take this time to imagine life without me, honey. When all your threats are realized, tell me, who's gonna dry your eyes? Who's gonna dry your eyes? You're covered up in snow, I can warm you. You're covered up in ice, I can warm you up.
Take this time to imagine life without me, honey. When all your plans are compromised I'm not gonna sympathize. Not gonna sympathize. Take this time to imagine life without me, honey. When all your threats are realized, tell me, who's gonna dry your eyes? Who's gonna dry your eyes?

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LOVESICK

I'm lovesick and every fiber of my being aches. And I am rendered useless by this love.
It consumes me. I didn't have the chance, I've been stricken. My heart is in your hands, I'm lovesick.
Love has meant so many things to me in my short, short lifetime. And none of them have been good, no, but then you come along. And now life is a song.
And I'll love you 'til the end, and I'll love you 'til the end. If I possess an immortal soul and God wills that we shall not be together, then I'll wait for you. I will pass though that dark night loving you more.
I'm lovesick.
Love has meant so many things to me in my short, short lifetime. And none of them have been good, no, but now you come along. And now life is a song. And I'll love you 'til the end. And I'll love you 'til the end.
And I'll love you 'til the end.

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MY TART

My tart, the sky, dressed in torn and bloody sunset. Sipping her fingertips, breathing through cigarettes, stare at her dirty and fair. She's smart, she knows I can be broken on her brow. She's biting her swollen lips, ripping up my cassettes, and when I crawl she feels nothing at all. Tie her down, I choke her, I strangle her, I have my way. I adore her anger, her lust and her lying.
Heart of my heart she has torn my throat out. Thought I could play the game, thought I knew everything, I would leave but she's the best friend I've got. She sweats through my clothes like a thousand candles. She burns white hot, she's all the things I am not, she burns the truth right out of me. Tie her down, I choke her, I strangle her, I have my way. I adore her anger, her lust and her lying. I go down in the mud and the madness to bury my sin.
Of all my lying, I will bury the truth in her skin, in her skin. Shipwrecked on her I will die of devotion, swim in her sea and you swallow the ocean. One look at her and I'm turned into foam, she is false. My tart. Oh, sipping her finger tips, breathing through cigarettes, stare at her dirty and fair. Tie her down, I choke her, I strangle her, I have my way. I adore her anger, her lust and her lying. I go down in the mud and the madness to bury my sin.
Of all my lying, I will bury the truth in her skin.

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ROSE

The aftertaste is one long longing, my whole being begging for one. My after life will be a song. With otherworldly inspiration, she calls me on. Rose has died and now morose. Let it happen comatose. I could use another dose of faith, of faith. Faith that emboldens me, caught in her entropy.
Folds her rosy fingertips. She pulls the crimson ocean, riptides of serotonin. In all my whole world, there's only this. My roses. My happiness lasts a moment, I don't own it. She is the dawn. You've done all you can do, I bleed through you. She calls me on.
Rose has died and now morose. Let it happen comatose. I could use another dose of faith, of faith. Faith that emboldens me, caught in her entropy.
Folds her rosy fingertips. She pulls the crimson ocean, riptides of serotonin. In all my whole world, there's only this. My roses. Life's a war, life's a war. What are we fighting for? Life's a war, life's a war. What are we fighting for?
My rose is gone.
Rose has died and now morose. Let it happen comatose. I could use another dose of faith, of faith. Faith that emboldens me, caught in her entropy.
Rose unfolds rosy fingertips. Drown in her crimson ocean, riptides of serotonin. In all my whole world, there's only this.
Faith that emboldens me, caught in her entropy. Fate unfolds her fingertips.
She pulls the crimson ocean, riptides of serotonin, in all my world, there's only this. My roses. My loneliness. My roses.

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TISSUE PAPER WINGS

My white knight rode away with his sword in his side, and a crown of thorns on his head. My guardian angel has forgotten how to fly. Says his wings feel like lead.
In hindsight I know everything was wrong. I fix it every night inside my head. I'll fix it every night until I'm dead. But you are gone. You are gone.
My white knight rode away with his sword in his side. And no one caught me when I fell, or comforted me when I cried. I care so much but my apathy grows every day. I can't express my empathy for everyone in any other way. I guess it meant a lot to me. I guess that it could never be. I guess I took you for a friend and not an enemy. I guess it meant a lot to me. I guess that it could never be. I guess I took you for more than you meant yourself to be.
I feel alone. I am alone. I've always been alone.
You are gone.

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